There was this one night last week when I felt like a complete loser. I was sad to think about people who may have distanced themselves from me because they think I’m a failure. Though I’m generally optimistic, sometimes I can’t help but think that my 20’s have been nothing but a series of futile efforts to achieve a possibly unattainable and increasingly regrettable career goal. ANYWAY.
I was sitting in the dark like some semi-sentient forgotten boulder being washed over by whatever online content came my way. Then I saw this, and at once felt re-activated. By chance, I stumbled across my initials and a relevant message. It was just the thing to uplift me. I found out the source of the image is this brand called KO Superstars, selling what can best be described as “athleisure wear.”
Regardless, seeing it gave me that same feeling I get when I encounter significant numbers: I can’t help but take it as a sign that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be. Like when a phone number I’ve never called before has one of my old addresses in it. Or I look at the time and it’s my birth date. I see them as signs of encouragement. I’m not a loser, I’m just on my way, moving at my own speed.
So I saw this and took it as a sign: KO, DON’T LOOK BACK JUST KEEP MOVING FORWARD. Whatever happened before is whatever happened before. I know that I am an intelligent person and a hard worker. I am funny, kind, and honest. I I am lucky to have people in my life who I love, and who love me. They’re the only ones whose opinions matter. There’s time yet in my young life to keep trying and see what’s out there.
“It’s never ‘too late’; ‘too late‘ is in the grave.” Jacob’s aunt sent me this quote. Thanks, Aunt Maggie! This entry is dedicated to you.